this is my personal pocket of calm in the vast, unruly wilds of the internet. i began working on this page in november 2024, after doing a lot of thinking about my relationship to the online and especially to how i present myself within it. i want to explore a way to exist online without being assaulted by algorithms, censorship, advertising, and other people's bad takes. i also want to think deeply about how i exist online, how and when i want to erase the barrier between the online and the offline in my life. i've always struggled with feeling like my existence "online" was fake, artificial, something i was constructing to entertain and appease other people. as a result, i've never had an online life that has felt real or rewarding. this is in part due to the alienating nature of the modern internet and capitalism, and in part because i have social anxiety. i hope that my little patch in the interconnected world of the web can be a place where i can exist wholly as myself and as i would like, no caveats.
i'll be stewarding this blue forest of mine with these goals in mind. the name for this site comes from a real place from my childhood, a patch of small pines behind my grandmother's house, where i'd play pretend and tell stories in a space that felt sacred and mine. hopefully this site can be, too.
if this resonates with you at all, please take a moment to rest here in the shade. you must do nothing but exist, as you are. but also, you can and should make your own personal site on neocities for free. their tutorials on HTML and CSS are incredibly helpful and easy to follow and are what allowed me, a total novice, to build the foundations of this ever-growing site. take back your identity from social media giants, search engine optimization and AI bullshit and make something true and beautiful :)